Kevin
I must confess that the situation
I find myself in now is not at all what
I expected to be in. God has been at work
on my heart over the past few months,
preparing my heart and mind for change.
I'll take a step back to show you where
this is coming from.
Last year I graduated
with the class of 2006 from Covenant Christian
High School. I had enrolled myself as
a freshman at a Christian college in Illinois
for the fall that year. My intentions
were to remain there for my four years,
earn my degree, and move on with life.
However, I find now that God has entirely
different plans for me. Throughout my
first semester, I began realizing that
this was not the place for me. I was not
being challenged there and was not offered
enough change of environment, having already
been to a private Christian high school.
The push however, was that God had seemingly
been calling me to another life, another
path.
In recent years, my eyes had been
opened to the program YWAM (Youth With
A Mission), a worldwide missions program
for college-aged men and women. This caught
my attention when my older brother Steven
first attended the six-month program overseas
in Australia. Ever since then, God has
been tapping me on the shoulder, trying
to get my attention. It’s almost
as if he were saying, "Come take
a look here. Check it out." He's
not telling me A to Z about His plans
for me there. He has simply called my
attention to this program and has been
doing so for many years now.
So I've decided
to go. I came back after first semester
and decided it was finally time to go
for it. I'm living at home now saving
money for the program I'll attend in the
fall. It will be a six-month term overseas
beginning in Australia, just as Steven
did. I know without a doubt that great
changes will take place and I will undergo
transformation by the hands of God, so
clearly I am eager to go, but yet I am
content with where I am now. Even though
I'd give everything to be there now, I
know that this time here at home before
I leave is still useful for something.
Just because I'm doing YWAM in the fall
does not at all mean that I shouldn’t
allow God to use me now. The journey I'll
be embarking on for the next year will
be an incredible year of growth and development
for my spiritual character. I don't know
what path I'll be on in ten years, or
what I'll be doing with my life at that
point. I do realize one thing though:
God is showing me that though I'm uncertain
of my future, He will still be there to
guide me on this adventure wherever I
may go, and so I will go. All in all,
I know I am in a time of huge growth in
my life and God is going to do some amazing
things. During this time of growth, I
know that I can venture out to any place
He may call me with confidence and peace,
because He will be with me every step
of the way.
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